I guess it’s true by what they say; no matter how long, how much time has passed, you’ll never entirely forget the memory of your first love.
Even if you do try to forget, you’d still remember.
Tonight, I was actually at this park located in front of my old highschool, playing lanterns, melting candles and eating mooncake. It was a random thing that my friends decided to do the night before, to celebrate the Mooncake festival (Happy Chuseok and Happy Mid-Autumn festival everyone~).
I honestly didn’t notice it at first but when we got there and they sat on this bench while I went back to the car to get newspapers (for us to sit because the floor was dirty), I realized that the bench where my friends sat on, another bench further down was where I had my first kiss stolen from me.
My thought was; Oh. It’s that bench.
Past memories of my first love flooded my mind soon after.
How he stole my first kiss which made me happy at that moment of time..
How he told me he loved me..
How he made me feel so blissful..
How he made me feel like I could love him forever..
How he broke my heart after 7 months in our relationship..
How he made me feel like a fool..
How he made me wish I could just die because of the heartbreak..
How I naively and foolishly forgave him and accepted him into my life again..
How a week to our 1st anniversary, I broke up with him because I couldn’t take it anymore..
How he cried and begged for us to be together again..
How I heartlessly shoved him away because I knew that this relationship would never work..
Till now, I didn’t regret that decision of mine. I’ve come a long way since then and I’ve moved forward so much that it became a distant memory.
But nevertheless, everything is still crystal clear and will forever be remembered .. because it is with your first love that you feel the most extreme of emotions.
I wouldn’t say I want to forget him because he thought me valuable lessons.
He reminded me not trust people, especially men too easily.
He reminded me that I should always believe in myself.
Could this be a sign? I guess I’ll find out soon enough. =)
Ytd, I went on sashimi - sushi dinner with le’Quinn (she was craving for it and I’m interested) And do believe me when I said - le’Quinn had a quite caramelly dessert after those salmony.. (LoL!)
The point is I forgot that I’m grounded (>.<) nevertheless - I got away with it I came home around 10 and after the shower - I had supper (rice + herb soup) Yeah.. nowadays I got hungry easily butimnopreggie geez you human minded.. near to hibernation season I think..
Altogether it was a good date of a Sagi & Capri.. We talked abt loads stuff… past to present to reminisce to random to crazy ~